Super-massive black hole

1. Super-massive black hole (or black cloud, para os mais íntimos)
Well, it's been a long since I don't start a discussion here. It's been a long time, as well, since I don't have the time to organize things -in my head- and take a decision for the next step. Super-massive black hole? Maybe.

Life is running day after day faster. In a way faster that I feel sitting by the window trying to fix a spot with my eyes to figure out what's happening. Almost another half of the year is over.

Not that tragedy though. I'd rather have more time to think about life and not only have the work-eat-sleep routine. I always needed that. Sometimes I lack the vocabulary, the connections and all the creativity I usually had to figure new paths out. Friends tell me all the time I have the ability to see them where they still don't exist. Well, friends are most of the time very -suspicious- to tell you about yourself as well. But I prefer believing them.

At the moment I have thousand of question marks hitting my head -with the black cloud sometimes- with things I cannot answer neither have the control at the moment. I hope it makes me somehow to grow up. Broader view of life, broader understanding of people.

No hay una lengua que contesta todas las preguntas y esclarece todas las dudas. No está en la lengua.

2. Butterflies and hurricanes
The butterflies. Elas aparecem e desaparecem com os hurricanes. Intervalo de ocorrência indeterminado. It's how to slide from the top to the bottom in random intervals of time and have to be prepared for that. Lack of strength, weakness. Sliding up and down.

3. Time is running out
As the song says...
I think I'm drowning
asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
that you've created

you're something beautiful
a contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction

you will be the death of me

4. The hardest part
I could feel it go down
Bittersweet, I could taste in my mouth
Silver lining the cloud
Oh and I
I wish that I could work it out